Wednesday 3 December, 2008

we mourn


Can anybody explain to this boy why he is attending his mommy and daddy's funeral after they were killed by terrorists in Nariman House, Mumbai and his whole life as he knows it came to an end? At 2 years old, this baby will never feel the embrace or affection of his parents ever again, and maybe will not even be able to remember them! Why???

Monday 1 December, 2008

ab dilli door nahin...

yippeeee only ten more days before i fly to india!!! it's been a year and a month since i saw u last, my beloved, unique country, and i have missed you so, so much! excited, frenzied presents shopping for all and sundry going on at present. the day is drawing so near so fast! :) the only bummer - hubby can't come along, so won't see him for a month. :(

Sunday 30 November, 2008

Terror - the Aftermath

we are now looking for scapegoats to pin the blame on, and then to be able to forget about the whole matter. politicians' resignations are being asked for left, right and centre. will that solve anything? are there any good ones to replace the ones who are resigning? if anything, atleast the ones who resign show they have some conscience of some kind.
this is the kind of attack that is virtually impossible to stop, no matter which part of the world you happen to be in. these are fatalistic men, prepared to risk all, worked up to a frenzy by their belief in the injustice on their people for centuries. how will you battle them by making 2-3 politicians resign?
in my opinion, the thing to do is to have a better, more organized, more responsive central intelligence agency in the country that is dedicated to fighting terrorism. we need to not only have advance intelligence, we need somebody who will take it seriously and take appropriate action. it now appears there was prior knowledge of the attack on the taj, the planned entry by sea-routes and even mumbai as a target by armed gunmen. but nobody took any appropriate action, and hence we were not prepared. granted, it is probably hard to sift through all the false warnings and threats to get to the few that actually mean something - all the more reason to have a central intelligence agency!
alas, it seems there's no alternative but to increase spending on defence. it's such a pity, because we really need the money to be spent on our nation's development. the terrorists are targeting the strongest nations with a clear agenda - bring down the superpowers, reduce all to the mess that their own nations are in. why don't u spend all that time and energy in making your nations better instead? a**holes!


just heard some good news on bbc - the Indian PM has actually set up a central intelligence agency that will deal exclusively with terrorism, and has augmented the forces involved in anti-terrorist operations. he also mentioned that this is the time for all political parties to rise above petty political differences and present a united front against this unprecedented threat. bravo, mr. manmohan, you do us proud!

Thursday 27 November, 2008

Terror strikes Mumbai

the madness is unbelievable. so many killed, so many injured. and after 12 hours, the nightmare still continues, with hostage situations in both Taj and Oberoi hotels. kill the motherfuckers!!! kill them dead!!! i am raging and grieving for my people, i want to be back home as soon as possible. i'm worried where this will lead. how long will these terror strikes continue? will it become a full-fledged war situation? just when my country was doing so well! maybe that's the reason india's being singled out in this way. maybe that's what's motivating these bastards - jealousy of what they cannot achieve. and we're an easy target anyway, with our large, poor and susceptible population and geographical location. why does a human being fall prey to extremist mindwashing anyway? isn't there any innate sense or logic or humanity inside him? there has to be something inside him that wants to kill and murder and inflict pain and grief and terror. i blame the ones that hold the guns as much as the brains behind the ones that hold the guns. they deserve everything that's coming to them. i hope our army finds and shoots each and every one of those fucking god-playing hostage-taking bastards, and tortures the rest beyond human belief. retaliate!!! WE REFUSE TO LIVE IN FEAR!!!

Monday 24 November, 2008

dostana - not gay and not proud

if you thought that here's finally a movie that treats homosexuality in a sensitive and sensible way, think again. firstly, the guys must have said about a million times in the movie that they are not gay, they are only pretending so that they can get an apartment and a green card. now we all know u don't get green cards faster if u're a gay couple, but that's typical hindi movie fluff so who cares. in fact, after proposition h8, who knows if they get it at all now? but when ideas start getting stolen from english movies and serials, that's so much worse! making abhishek and john stand in a public loo in adjoining stalls and having a guy walk in on them would remind u of a F.R.I.E.N.D.S episode where chandler gets his clothes stolen by julia roberts for revenge (Season 2, Episode 13 - The One After the Superbowl: Part 2). the faces collage that priyanka thinks up as a new layout for her magazine is so stolen from 13 going on 30 that it's not even funny! they dint make much of it in this movie, but if u saw the original, u'd spot it right away! john even shot the people holding frames!!! and who knows how many more ideas were stolen, just from movies we haven't seen yet! and here we thought bollywood was finally coming to maturity. shame, karan and tarun, shame!!!!
i really thought we'd see a movie about two guys who fall in love, maybe something along the lines of brokeback mountain, a truly gay couple, finally a breakthrough in hindi movies! but no, this made in fact a mockery of the whole community. boman could not have acted more cliched if he tried, and john and abhishek keep saying they're not gay, and in fact fall in love with a woman. they do have the first guy-guy lip-lock (all camera angles, no actual touching), but again the motivation is clearly a woman.
and apart from all that, it's not even a good movie!!! it drags and drags, the jokes are old, kirron's part sucks and is even more of a cliche than boman's, and i seriously do not know what sushmita mukherji was doing in the movie. frankly, the movie was so bad that it even made bobby deol look good in comparison!!! very disappointing.

bowling for columbine

isn't it ironic that on the day i saw this movie, i also read this article. a man got shot at in the chest while mowing his lawn, and was saved only because he had his phone in his pocket. and it wasn't any revenge story either! it was a random bullet somebody fired maybe a quarter of a mile away just for target practice or something!!! can you believe that??? seriously, people should rethink the second amendment.
bowling for columbine was the usual michael moore fare, pretty much along the same lines as fahrenheit 9/11. i'm glad there's somebody out there tracking and talking about these things. making us think and rethink our choices. i agree with him that firearms should not be so easily available. it's like what i said about drugs earlier - easy availability tends to push borderline cases over the edge. and this is even more serious than drugs; people don't just hurt themselves here, but others. innocent others. i'm all for restraining sale of firearms to those with proper licenses, identification and records.
in this movie, moore made another point - hysteria created by the press keeps everyone scared and panicky, and that causes people to react in extreme ways. and with firearms in so many households, who knows what that could turn into? i agree with him about the press-created hysteria. nowhere else do i see such sensationalization of news as i do on cnn. if the economy is doing badly, it's not just doing badly, it's taking the whole world down with it. if there has been a terrorist attack on the US, it's not just been a terrorist attack, it has been the worst terrorist attack in the history of terrorist attacks. maybe it's the american obsession with supersizing everything. who knows? a canadian girl in the movie puts it best - people don't think, don't negotiate, don't talk, they just react; we'll just kill you, and that's the end of that.
there are so many great things about american society. u're path forgers for the rest of the world in so many ways. is this the kind of murky underbelly u wanna have? guys, get a grip?

Saturday 22 November, 2008

movies and other hallucigens

i'm on such a high! i saw three movies in the last two days! now i gotta tell u, in case u already don't know - i just love the movies. LOVE! i would watch anything once. but sometimes u see such fantastic stuff that's so right, carries the beat so well, that u get high on it. and when u see three in a row, u can't miss right? something's gonna work out!
yesterday was slumdog millionaire. if you have not watched it already, i strongly recommend that you do so now. before you read on any further. u have been warned - spoiler alert!!!!! that said, i could not believe this movie was not made by an indian, it was so indian. being from india, i pretty much have to wriggle and sigh my way through a lot of stereotypes about my country in hollywood movies, but this one rocked! i loved it! i didn't cringe once, except for the way they portrayed 'who wants to be a millionaire'. they touched on so many issues, so many many issues that we, real indians living in india now, are concerned with and dealing with right now - terrorism, the underworld, police brutality, religious riots, poverty, child abuse - and it was all so subtly done that u'd never guess it wasn't a straightforward movie about the life of the central character if u didn't know the context! for instance, did u realize that the anti-muslim riots in mumbai that killed jamal's mom were probably the awful riots post babri masjid demolition in '91? awesome how many levels this movie has. and it was soooo bollywood, in such a good way, in a way acceptable to young indians who love bollywood. i loved that! they even had a song and dance routine at the end, with good choreo, not snarky bullshit with people running around trees! people in an all-white audience in norway (and boy, u do not get more white than scandinavian white) clapped at the end of the movie! i felt like i was back home in india! brilliant effort guys. but i would like to say, u really dumped on 'who wants to be a millionaire' for no reason. they always have the politest hosts, no host has any stake in the winnings or losses of the contestants, you don't have to decide whether or not you're gonna carry on playing before even hearing the next question, and they definitely never, ever go into an ad break before the participant has answered a question (though they may before they tell u if he's right). it's a huge phenomenon in india, loved by all. seriously, if u ain't been there, u can't fathom it. i mean, they got amitabh bachchan to host it, for crying out loud! there's people building actual temples for that guy and worshipping him, he's that much of a god! (seriously, it was in the news, there's actually a temple in india dedicated to the big B). well, anyway, i'm not nuts, i know it's just a movie, and who wants to be a millionaire (or kbc - kaun banega crorepati - as we lovingly call it in india) is just a show, i can take a lil playing around with that concept. bottom line - this movie rocks!!! it's the kind of movie that makes u regret that there aren't more like it, that makes u feel depressed that such a fantastically indian movie wasn't made by an indian, that leaves u on a high that goes on for days! go watch it, guys.
the second movie we saw was zach and miri make a porno. well, obviously, nowhere in the same genre or anything hehe, to put it mildly. apart from scatological references - watching people getting covered in shit (actual shit) two nights in a row is a bit much for me, i think i'm done with that for the rest of my life, thanks guys. but apart from that, it was not as bad as expected, not as funny as expected, but pretty much a cute chick flick that u could sit thru once. quite formulaic though, which was unexpected, considering the title. my advice? go watch slumdog millionaire.
the third, phew, was annie hall. i love diane keaton, have done for years, and this is THE definitive diane keaton movie, right? made for her, around her, about her, who could ask for more diane keaton in a movie? a lil bit much on the talking tho, and a lil dated now with all the taking yourself so seriously and the philosophy and the marijuana and the psycho-analysis, but still quite delightful so far. that's all i'm gonna say about it cos i haven't finished it yet cos my hubby fell asleep half-way hehe. woody doesn't work late friday night after watching zach and miri make a porno till 11:30 p.m.! no offence, woody. see u tomorrow night!


hubby registers a protest against the falling asleep midway remark. well alright, so he did find out about the movie and locate it and download it so we could watch it. and he does make a lot of effort reading reviews on imdb to find more stuff to download. and the stuff he downloads is always interesting. but he still fell asleep midway right? i mean, i'm just stating a fact :D
finished annie hall, original impressions remain intact.

Sunday 16 November, 2008

gay and proud!

my entire world is buzzing with proposition 8 right now - indignant people (gay and straight) speaking out against this huge step backward. in a world where more and more countries are considering legalizing homosexuality, here is arguably one of the most developed states in one of the most developed countries of the world agreeing to make it illegal. it's such a pity. coming from a developing nation like mine, i hear all the time about my retrogressive and orthodox society. so i look towards the west to lead the way forward, towards a more liberal and intelligent world, and i hope that some day my country will adopt those standards as well. and then when the west takes a step like this, it doesn't just let down the homosexual community of their country, it lets down the whole world. this is just as bad as re-electing bush, people!!! some day you're gonna regret it, but how're you gonna make up for the decades of frustration you put people through???
some people believe homosexuality is a sham, that you choose to be gay. it's not really true. scientists have discovered actual genes in your system that can determine your sexual orientation! homosexuality has been around since recorded history, and who knows what happened before that? given the amount of grief people go through just because of their homosexual orientation, don't you think they would give it up if they could??? we have to learn to accept that it's as natural as heterosexuality!
it's all about love, man! you can't help who you fall in love with. and you sure as hell shouldn't try and restrict it just cos it ain't like yours. if two people are in love, they've got just as much right to spend their lives together as anybody else, and ain't nobody gonna tell them different.
i'm pro-choice, and proud of it!

Wednesday 12 November, 2008

internet rocks my world

maxed out today - internet modem conked, surviving on stolen internet, in a huge fight with landlady (crazy lady who thinks there's arsenic in my computer that is poisoning her and the lights on my modem are flames on her wall that are making her ill) AND got stomach flu. and i decided this would be the perfect time to fight caffeine addiction as well!!!! it just doesn't get any better than this grrummph! and what is THE best therapy at times like these, ladies? back to back sex and the city, of course!!! just finished season 3! yay me! if there is one series that embodies woman power, i think it's this one. it's the perfect 'i don't need a guy, i've got my girls, i rock' place! no matter what problems i've got, watching these women makes me feel so cocky! in control! sexy! carry on carrie!!!
i never knew how dependent i'd become on the internet till it was taken away yesterday! suddenly i can't get thru the day, it's a million hours long, i'm restless and can't focus on anything! my mind is fixated on playing my favorite online game, or checking my calendar, or reading a thousand worthless posts on digg or my reader. maybe the universe is sending me a message to get out more often! and here i am blogging about it on stolen internet instead! :P hehe the universe better learn how to twitter instead!!! :)

Wednesday 22 October, 2008

all the world's a stage

sometimes the world seems like such a cruel place to live in. people committing mindless petty acts of bitchiness for no rhyme or reason, or maybe just cheap thrills. of course one wants to say one is completely innocent of all such acts and the bewildered victim, but obviously the thing that hurts the most is that one finds these flaws within oneself too. it is easy to forget what the world does, but v hard to forgive and forget oneself. they say women over-analyze every detail of what happens in their lives. i wish we weren't built that way. really, i wish we had some control over what we could be, like going to a computer store and selecting harmonious components to build a good system. right now it seems everything is being bunged in just hotch-potch, reaching out for the first thing on the shelf, so that we're ending up with completely unbalanced people without any emotional stability (i.e. me). i don't think sitting at home agrees with me. too much time. i need to be overworked to be happy. sigh, always wanting what is not...

Tuesday 21 October, 2008

epiphany

sometimes a thought hits you like the headlight of a train. sometimes it's a person. a person so out of the ordinary that you find it hard to believe that they exist. a person you worship, almost. doesn't mean they got an easy life - far from it. being extraordinary doesn't make you any friends in this world. but you feel humbled knowing that you know they exist. i knew a girl like that once.



we need heroes! is that why we created god?



it's awful to hero-worship. u're setting urself up for a fall. it's impossible to make anybody into a hero without ignoring all their faults, and when they become so apparent that u can't close ur eyes anymore, baraboom, there falls the edifice. that's why it's safe to believe in god, because there's no visible flaws that will manifest themselves. unless u start believing ur life is ordained by god, and then blaming god for all ur problems. then u've got back to square one, basically.

Monday 22 September, 2008

pippa

sometimes some books can touch you so deeply, like they're written about yourself. the private lives of pippa lee, by rebecca miller. i am filled with emotion, touched to the heart. scared. this life that i am building for myself, sacrificing everything else to be a wife, hoping to be a mother, will i end up being superfluous in the lives of everyone i love and work for? am i really doing this for myself?

Saturday 20 September, 2008

blame it on the neighbors

there's been a bomb blast in islamabad today - the marriott hotel lies in ruins, several fatalities. i feel terrible... and guilty. i have always been told that pakistan is behind the terrorism attacking my country, deliberately sabotaging our peace to gain control of our territories, and worse - harboring and even training terrorists and then sending them to our country to kill us. and i'm sure everyone was secretly or not-so-secretly blaming them for the series of blasts hitting india lately. now that there is a bomb blast in their country as well, i don't know what to think. i don't know whether i should call it a cover-up job to convince the west that they're not behind the indian terror attacks, or whether i should empathize since they're in the same situation as us. no matter what it is though, the pakistani person on the street is no better off than the indian person on the street. no matter who wins this war, we lose. our lives, our children, our peace. what is the solution???

Monday 15 September, 2008

under threat

this is a sad day. my country is under repeated attacks from idiots who believe they're achieving something by killing little children. it is hard not to be filled with rage and helplessness. it is hard not to rant on and on about the uselessness and pointlessness of it all. the ones who do it are not listening. will they ever realize that this is not the answer?

Sunday 10 August, 2008

procrastination flowchart

stumbled upon this: http://www.mymilliondollaryear.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2007/11/flowchart1.jpg - it's the stages you go through when trying to avoid work! hehe sounds almost uncomfortably familiar! :)

Tuesday 5 August, 2008

eulogy to a brother in arms

in the words of phoebe buffay: "it's a sucky life! and just when you think it can't suck no more, it does!" fuckall cruel joke we are, mortal and fallible, dying before our time.
yugraj was his name, but he did not rule the world, not even his own world. a little boy inside the man. the eldest and the youngest of us all. my darling, darling brother, i miss you!

Monday 4 August, 2008

star power - may the force be with them

so many of our indian movie stars are now turning to blogging to be able to connect directly with their fans and the public. i suppose it's a free country and all, but really, i thought much more highly of them before i knew them so intimately! in an industry built on selling the impossible dream to people, it is disillusioning to see them as mere mortals. if this continues, will the next step be, oh horrors, realistic cinema?????????? :)

Tuesday 29 July, 2008

aerosmith guru

You ain't that good/ Is what you said down to the letter
But you like the way I hold a microphone
Sometimes I'm good but when I'm bad I'm even better
Don't give me no lip/ I've got enough of my own...
Falling in love is so hard on the kneeeeeees!!!

Genius! Pure genius! :)

Wednesday 23 July, 2008

The story of your life... in 30 words or less

There's this really interesting website that posts stories written by its readers. The catch? The entire story has to be written in one sentence. A very interesting idea. Some of the stories are really good, and most of them evoke a lot in just one sentence - a whole setting, situation and mood. Here's the link: http://www.onesentence.org/

I stumbled upon the Picasso in me

hehe I was stumbling again, and it led me to a site where you can make your own picasso-esque painting using basic design elements from his work. it's fun, even though the choices are quite limited! see what I made: http://www.mrpicassohead.com/canvas.html?id=87ebcc5&skin=original

Tuesday 22 July, 2008

Are we animals???

I was watching this animal rescue show on one of the nature channels on tv. It's so depressing to see in what condition house pets are sometimes kept. Why do people think they're the lords of creation? They take animals as pets when nobody is forcing them to, and then don't feed them or look after them, or worse, are cruel to them, and make them wish they'd never been born! What gives us the right to do that? Animals are made for love, the only beings in the world capable of unconditional silent devotion! They're like children that trust us and depend on us for everything! It is NOT OK to mistreat them! Thank God somebody's monitoring the situation and taking maltreated animals away from their "owners".
I loved my dog and I miss him every day. He was the most beautiful brindle boxer that was specially hiding in a hell-hole for us to rescue. He had three different kinds of worms when we got him, as well as near-starvation, asthma and slight starvation-related muscular under-development similar to rickets. Boxers don't do so well in a hot country like India. It took us nearly six months to get him completely healthy again, and he was faithfully ours for the rest of his shorter-than-usual life. Such a beautiful dog, and so naughty! He conquered our hearts and ruled our lives. He had the best blanket in the house but would only wait till Dad dozed off to jump up slyly onto his bed. If you made a strange noise that he'd never heard before, he'd cock his head around from side to side trying to figure out what the matter with you was. He was so patient that once when I didn't see him behind me and stepped back onto his toe, the poor thing went and hid but never retaliated in any way. Would you be able to do that? A darling, darling boy that left a space in our family, our lives, our hearts that we will never be able to fill again. If you think he was just an animal, you seriously need to get one yourself. Most likely you'll be talking to your pet within a month. :)
I want to get another dog, but we're here in this country only temporarily and I don't know what it would involve to take him back with us to a country with a very different climate. And if we're not able to take him/her, it would just break my heart. So I wait... But God, I miss having that interaction. It's on another level, a more basic, instinctive level, something we can't achieve with humans because they're too developed.

Monday 21 July, 2008

latest stumble

OK so i'm addicted to stumble upon! :) here's the latest: http://www.overheardinnewyork.com. it seems like in NY, everyone says the darnedest things! :) (wow darnedest is in my browser dictionary!)

Saturday 19 July, 2008

To beget, or not to beget...

You know, in the world as it is today, it is becoming more and more difficult to justify making the traditional choices to your friends! If you're a big city-big school type, you'll have come across the standard feminist theories about self-realization and not having to bend to the pressure of society to fulfill traditional roles of wife and mother. But if you've been through that education system and still want to fulfill those traditional roles, out of choice heaven forbid, suddenly you're an outcast! Nowadays it's not rebellion if you wanna sleep with your boyfriend before marriage, it's rebellion if you don't!!! In my opinion, this is as much against feminism as I understand it as enforcing traditional roles was. To be truly fulfilled, it is freedom of choice I need, whatever those choices may be! Women, stop enforcing gender roles on me, no matter in which direction! 25 years of school, and I'm still succumbing to the most ancient hormonal impulses hehe...

Tuesday 15 July, 2008

tick tock tick tock clockwork oranges are exploding...

i never thought i'd say this, but i think the movie made more of an impact than the book!!! shockers! it's just that violence in print does not get the kind of graphic, sub-cutaneous reaction that it gets in visual. but in one way the movie missed the point completely - the book is not about violence inherent in all of us, it's not about finding out that no matter how sick this is making you feel there's a part of you that knows that urge and understands it and you're mr. hyde too ha ha ha! in fact, the book's true motive (yes i'm the messiah so shoot me!) is really revealed in its ending, in a few short lines that deliver a punch so hard you're left gasping for breath and thought - it's about youth!!! youth striving to shed shackles, youth caught in self-loathing awakening to a sick new world, violent fuck-you i-don't-give-a-damn youth!!! and THAT's why it's a book that every generation must have a copy of!!!

did e e cummings have it right?

it's so much easier to type without capitalizing. the only word i have a problem with is the single letter 'i'. i don't like the look of the small i instead of the big i when i want to say i... :)

Inkie ji ko salaam

I've been reading my friend's blog recently, right from 2004! I am in total awe that I know this woman, I mean, how brilliant is she???? You don't believe me, go check it out yourself: http://inkspillz.blogspot.com/

Jaane Tu... Par Na Jaanu Main!

spoiler alert - you have been warned...
i don't see what the fuss is about. everyone's raving about it. a friend whose taste in movies i most humbly respect told me it's better than dil chahta hai! PSHAW!!!!!!!!!!!! like hell! nothing can ever be better than dil chahta hai!!!!! i'm a die-hard fan, don't ever mess with that hehe... and no, i do NOT think this was better than taare zameen par, which was so moving, so nice, apart from one song... i thought JTYJN was a cute movie, but that's just about it. i seriously did not understand the deal with the girl's bro - sensitive is one thing, but resenting ur sis making friends is just crazy. i did not get that! get a life, dude, make ur own friends! and many things were overdone - which we do not expect from the A folk - Aamir, Apple... :P sohail and arbaaz were overdone (but they always are) (but good to see mainstream people in aamir's movie!). the evil fiance totally wrong for her was soooo totally overdone and unnatural!!! c'mon, somebody can be wrong for u just cos u love somebody else, they don't have to be mean evil bastard for u to see that. give a smart gal some credit yaar, and not punches in the eye! and the naseer-in-a-photu angle was so monumentally stupid i could not believe i was seeing that kinda lame-ass bullshit in an aamir movie! will somebody please give that super-talented actor some decent work??????? aamir, did u make this one from the heart???
that said, the first part with the lead pair's camaraderie totally rocked, Imran and Genelia are soooo cute and it was a lovely feel-good movie at the end of it all, even if it was a no-brainer! and the stylistic element of telling the story and converting the non-believer also added a nice touch, i thought... and the ever-delightful ratna pathak shah ahhhh!!!


there, i said it! phew! i am so sick of trying to smile as people rave about this movie! i don't get it! are people now praising movies just because aamir is making them? have they forgotten why he was so great after all? subtlety! content! this one is definitely below par... :( i guess that's part of the problem - super-high expectations based on past performance... looking forward to the next one, aamir, i love your work!

H.E.L.P.

nothing can turn back time. i'm very aware that the choices i'm making right now will determine what i will have to live with ten or twenty years later, but i just don't see how i could decide things any differently. i love working. i just love my job, i love using my brain, i love earning money and being able to buy things without asking anybody for them, i love all that. but if there's one thing i love more than that, it's my husband. i know that i'm giving up developing to my full potential in order to follow another person around wherever they may go, but i also sincerely believe that i would die inside if i could not be with that person. it's really a no-brainer. i wish i could have everything, but hey, who does? i hope one day i don't become so cynical that i don't realize that i really wanted to do this just now, and to hell with the consequences! i wish i don't look back and regret the choices i made and yearn to do them over. i'm really scared of that.

Californication

I am so high on Californication right now! Just saw 8 episodes back to back! It's fast-moving, it's got a completely riveting central plot, interesting sub-plots, a wonderful parent-child relationship - who needs more? Maybe a little less of the self-pity would be nice, but hey, there's hope! And it's a writer with a writer's block - I'm hooked!!!! Haven't been this way since I first saw Sex and the City!

Wednesday 9 July, 2008

Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds

I was stumbling around the web (addicted to Stumble Upon!) and found this very interesting article for legalizing drug use. Click here to read it. It makes some very good points.
I guess allowing people to make their own choice about drugs is OK, but all I'm worried about is my own (prospective) kids having free access to such life-altering chemicals without proper information on the effects such chemicals can have on their lives. I would want them to at least be adults, and completely aware before making such a decision, and not teenagers under peer pressure. I think making these things hard to get protects many borderline cases to stay this side of the line.
In light of this article though, it does seem that legalizing them is a much better and safer option than the current situation. But the solution I'd suggest is to have an age barrier for their sale, just like alcohol - make age verification compulsory before sale and restrict points of sale to chemists or pharmacies with qualified pharmicists, not just some overworked bored teenage supermarket clerk who's not even going to bother checking ID properly.
What do you think?

Monday 28 April, 2008

Juno

oh man, what a feel good movie!!! totally fell in love with juno (ellen page) and with the music, the story, the sensitivities - what a long-remembered, long-cherished experience! sometimes you come across artistic efforts that you really feel are speaking to you - as if you're singled out among the teeming masses and it's thrown a spotlight on you - so intimately does it seem to be talking to you! like american beauty... like pieta... like ijaazat... like this! :) i am feeling so good right now, i have a smile on my face, and the world seems a better place to be in!!! definitely recommend this movie!!! i know i'll be watching it again and again!

Thursday 3 April, 2008

daytime television hell!

ugh! daytime television has hit rock bottom! i just saw an ad for a programme called "women who sweat"!!!! 30 minutes of seeing women sweat... man, are we that addicted to tv that we'll sit in front of it even if it's showing ugly people dealing with bodily functions best not mentioned? ok, it's a part of life and you deal with it if you have such a problem, but what kind of a concept is that for a programme? how did it even get network approval??? bah!

Wednesday 26 March, 2008

The Greek Experience

Easter Vacations. A time for non-Christians like us to rejoice in a welcome break, and run to warmer climes. My husband and I are going to Greece. Since we have only 6 days – 20th to 25th March, we’ve planned 1 and half days in Crete and 2 and half days in Athens. The rest of the time will go in traveling. Suffice it to say, Oslo is not near to Greece. In Crete we have made Khania (alternatively, Chania, Hania or Xania) our base, and will try and explore some of the natural beauty nearby.

DAY 1 – 20th March, 2008

We’ve spent the whole day traveling – from Oslo to Athens to Khania, Crete – one flight after the other but thankfully no snags, no delays. Baggage got here with us, though after an interminable delay at Khania when we thought the entire airport staff had gone on strike and left us stranded!!!

Political conditions are in turmoil right now in Athens, with tear gas and petrol bombs exchanged between civilians and riot control police yesterday! Apparently the pension system is up for overhaul today in the Greek Parliament, and the people are not happy with the new provisions. I suppose it’s selfish, but I just hope they get what they want, and it’s calm and peaceful by the time we get to Athens on the 22nd.

Weather forecast is sunny with partial clouds. Very bright and hot outside, especially when you compare to cold and grey Oslo at this time of the year, which we left in the grip of a -4 degrees C cold wave, brrrrr! What a riot of colors! The minute we landed in Athens, our senses were assailed by exotic flowers, vibrant colors, delicious food, yummmm! People wearing oranges and siennas for once, instead of black, blue and grey.

We arrived at Khania at 9 in the night, and hoped to take a bus to the city, but the last bus leaves at eight, hehe. The only way to get to city was by shared taxi, which cost 20 Euros till our hotel and took much longer than it should have because the taxi driver went off into narrow lanes and deserted by-ways to drop off the other passenger first. But he was a nice, friendly chap, and once he had dropped off the other passenger, became quite forthcoming about the place in general.

Khania is a small town, with quaint narrow streets, where the church bells still function as alarm clocks for everyone. From our hotel, we can see the ocean to one side, and snow-capped hills on the other, which, I must say, is an amazing luxurious feeling to start the day with!!!

DAY 2 – 21st March 2008

We’re staying at the hotel El Greco in the old town area in Khania, for 45 Euros a night for a double room. If you’re going to stay in Khania, the old town area is probably the best place to stay. It borders the beach, the markets, the bus station, and pretty much everything worth seeing in Khania. It is also worth it for the quaint little stone streets where you don’t know what you will find around the next corner.

Today was a mixed bag. The plan was to visit Elafonisi beach. Samara Gorge is closed at the moment, and opens only in May, I think. Otherwise that would have been a good place to spend a day in. Although I don’t know if I’d be able to walk 16 kilometers!!!

Now the most convenient way to get anywhere in Greece is by renting a car and driving it yourself. A small car costs about 30 Euros a day, not including fuel, which is cheap compared to any other mode of transport. However, it is absolutely mandatory to have an international license to drive in Greece, which unfortunately neither of us had. It was a huge setback, because otherwise we could have covered both Elafonisi and Falassarna in a day, with a beautiful drive along the way. We were really looking forward to it! But since there was no help for it, and we were determined to get to the beach somehow, we made our way to the bus station. A taxi would have cost way too much from Khania – upwards of 200 Euros.

We were not totally unprepared for this eventuality. Back home when we were researching for our trip, we had looked up bus schedules on the official website, which said there are direct buses from Khania to Elafonisi and Falassarna. But they forgot to mention that the direct buses do not run in “winter”, so we were told to take a bus till Kastelli and from there hire a taxi to the beach. There was no help for it, and 2 days in Khania are a complete waste, so off we went with our fate in our hands.

The bus costs 4 Euros per person per trip to Kastelli, so in total it cost us 16 Euros for the round trip Khania-Kastelli-Khania. It takes about an hour to reach Kastelli, which is a quaint little town with a beautiful waterfront, but completely deserted at this time of year. And when I say deserted, I mean ghost town, no-man-in-sight-for-miles deserted!

We walked around a bit, then came back to the main square to get a taxi. The good thing is, the taxi stand is just opposite the bus stand, and all the rates are printed on a board right next to the taxi stand, so that you are pretty sure the rates are the same for everyone and you’re not being looted. It costs 12 Euros to get from Kastelli to Falassarna, and you have to call the taxi twice, once for going and once for coming back, because there are no taxis at Falassarna, so in total it cost us 24 Euros. We had to drop the idea of going to Elafonisi because it would have cost upwards of 80 Euros and we are on a budget.

One small advice to the brave who visit Greece in late March – the beaches are not tourist-oriented at this time, so eat at Kastilli before leaving for Falassarna, or carry provisions with you.
Once we got into the taxi, things finally started going right for us. It was a beautiful drive down to the beach, a beautiful sunny day touching 25 degrees and with no troublesome wind but a gentle, balmy breeze all day. Ideal conditions! The first glimpse of the Mediterranean immediately made us feel all the trouble had been worth it!!! Here it is:

For those who are historically minded, there is an archeological site near Falassarna, about 2 km walk. The road to the site is only one lane wide and not asphalted, so take your car at your own risk. We walked part of the way and spied the ruins from afar, but they looked quite eroded, so we digressed and ran to the beach instead. The beautiful blue lake was calling us!!! Almost could hear Circe sing!

We spent 3-4 hours on the sandy beach. It wasn’t strewn with sea-shells or pinkish in color, but neither was there any tar to contend with. Maybe that’s the off-season advantage. The water was a little too cold to swim in, but the sun was blazing and we went in waist-deep gradually. The waves were very strong and the coast is rocky, so we did not venture further. There was nobody in sight, and we had one of the best-rated beaches in Europe all to ourselves!!! The colors of the sea were mind-blowing, the sand was clean and good times were had by all. It was a memorable day!

One unique feature of the Cretan sea-scape is that you can see the sea on one side, and hills, even snow-topped hills in places, on the other side. The coast is mostly rocky and weaves in and out, creating gorges and lagoons that make for interesting views at almost every turn. At Falassarna, two arms of land reach out and almost hug the sea, creating a shallow lagoon. The rocky coast is wonderful for some time-pass spelunking, and we had a lot of fun climbing up and down the rocks and collecting sea-shells.

Finally, making our way back, we came upon a wooden bridge that led to a café, where we tried dakos and cheese pies. Not really our type of food, I guess, but it seemed very average to us. Dakos are a traditional Greek dish, we were told, with tomato sauce and feta cheese on a hard rye bread, with olive oil and some dried olives on the side. The tomato “sauce” wasn’t even cooked, and really just seemed like the tomatoes had been turned in a blender, poured onto the bread and served!!!

Back in Khania for dinner, we first ran to the hotel to take showers and treat our massive sun-burns with some cold-cream. Many layers of cold-cream later, we are both still bright red, itchy and slowly peeling! Hehe, but it was so worth it!!! What a lovely day!

For dinner we had chicken souvlaki and gyros in a wayside café in front of fountain in the Venezian square in the old town, near our hotel. The food was really good. Souvlaki is meat on skewers served with tzatziki, onions, tomatoes and fries. Gyro is a pita roll with bits of meat, fries, tzatziki et al stuffed inside. Yummmmmmy, definitely worth trying at least once.

A strange incident occurred while we were at dinner. A drunk guy punched a teenaged boy on the nose and lurched away, and the poor boy staggered to the fountain to wash his bleeding nose. People stood and watched, but nobody went up to him to help him!!! It was a really strange experience. The waiters in our café all stood by the roadside and made jokes and laughed, and generally seemed to think they were at a theatre watching a play than a real boy in real pain. Maybe they knew him, and knew the situation also. After a while, the boy recovered, the bleeding stopped and he disappeared into the crowd.

Tomorrow we sight-see Khania and fly to Athens in the evening. Sincerely hope and pray the pension situation is sorted out! We haven’t been able to see the news because the TV in our room isn’t working…. Ah well, economy hotel….

To sum up our experience in Crete so far, there are pros and cons to coming here in the off-season. On the pro side, it’s not at all crowded (rather, almost deserted, hehe), the weather is warm and sunny during the day and cool at night, rates are less and it’s not that touristy. On the con side, many tourist conveniences are not available, like cheap tours, direct buses, etc. And people notice you and probably think to themselves, ah, tourist season has begun early this year!!! But the people are generally really sweet, approachable, helpful, voluble and friendly! We’ve had a really good experience with whomever we’ve met so far.

DAY 3 – 22ndMarch 2008

The day started on a lazy note – there was no fixed agenda and the city market starts to wake up only around 9, so we took our time waking up and getting dressed, had a luxurious breakfast of crepes filled with white sauce, mushrooms, peppers, ham and bacon (yummmmy!!!! words cannot describe how delectable it was!), and then went off to look at the markets. On the way, the sea caught our eye, it was a stunning blue and the sun was shining!!!

The leather market off Halidon Street is especially worth visiting, and you can just continue walking on that road till you reach the main market in town. It’s a wonderful place to buy souvenirs at affordable rates. Many people remarked that we were the first of the touristy lot, and our coming was signaling the start of season to them hehe. We got many discounts also from people because of that. There is a market in Khania that is built in a cross-shaped yellow building, where you can pick up all kinds of herbs and spices, flavored honey and various kinds of olive oil. Lovely to walk through and take in the sights, even if fussy airlines do not actually allow you to carry the goodies away (check with your airlines before you buy – have heard stories of people being asked to leave edible items behind). Things are quite affordable in Crete, and we had a lovely time shopping for souvenirs for the family.

After the shopping we made our way to the lighthouse, one of the few surviving structures of any archaeological significance in Khania. We were not allowed to climb to the top, but the walk was good and got some good photo ops. After that, lunch, and then it was time to leave for Athens.

The flight was uneventful. From the airport we found there are two main ways of reaching the city centre – by metro and by bus. Metro costs 6 Euros per person, but you get a discount if you’re in a group, so for 2 of us we paid 10 Euros. You can also take a bus till the city centre, which costs 3.20 Euros. We didn’t take the bus because we would have had to take the metro from the city centre anyway to reach our hotel. We’re staying at Hotel Economy for 68 Euros a night, which is near Omonoia metro station on one side, and Ancient Agora and the Plaka region on the other. Very convenient location. Had gyros for dinner nearby, and a huge ice-cream sundae that was not easy to finish, and now back at the hotel to crash. So tired!!! Tomorrow big day – walking tour booked with Athens Walking Tours at 9:30 to see Acropolis etc, costing 29 Euros per person. We’ve found from our prior travels that it’s always worth it to have an experienced and knowledgeable guide when visiting anything of historical importance. We found out about this walking tour on the internet, and it’s one of the cheapest tours available, and highly recommended. More information can be obtained about them by mailing to this ID: info@athenswalkingtours.gr.

DAY 4 – 23rd March 2008

The walking tour was really worth it! It’s always a good idea to take a guided tour of the city on the very first day, because it gives you a very good idea of the main attractions, and leaves you free to explore further whatever takes your fancy. We strolled along with our guide, a very nice, knowledgeable and entertaining lady, who kept pointing out areas of interest in Athens and took us all the way from Syntagma metro station to the Acropolis via the Lysicrates monument.

Athens is one of the oldest cities in the world, people have been living in this area since the dawn of civilization, and you begin to feel that right from Syntagma metro station itself. When they started digging for the metro in Athens, guess what they found? No, not buried waste, but a whole ancient city below the present-day city! This is why many of the metro stations in Athens are also museums, with parts of the ancient city on display. In Syntagma metro station are some of the walls and graves, and one grave even had a real skeleton in it just as it was found!!!!!!! That was one of the freakiest things I have ever seen – the skeleton of a real person just lying there as if it’s asleep!!! Eeeeyikes, be warned, this is not for the frail of heart.

One nice thing I noticed about Athens is that none of the archaeological sites have any entry fee. It’s a shared history, and everyone’s welcome to visit. In comparison, Rome fleeces you at every step of the way, with a hefty entry fee for everything. But well, that’s Italy for you, where you even have to pay to pee. It’s quite a nice change in Athens.

We saw the monument of Lysicrates and a Greek Orthodox church that is now a Russian Orthodox church on the way to the Acropolis. If you’re a fan of churches, you’ll go berserk in Athens, because here nearly every wealthy family had its own church, so there are countless little treasures tucked away in quiet corners and little squares and you’ll never be able to see them all. Just to give you an example, the tiny island of Mykonos alone has over 400 churches! We concentrated on the main monuments, and any tiny things we saw along the way were an added bonus. It’s impossible to see everything the city has to offer in 2 and half days.

Immediately after the monument of Lysicrates, the hill of the Acropolis starts looming larger and larger. An interesting factoid about this hill– there are several caves in the hill, and most of them are places of worship! Chapels.

No postcards ever give you an idea of what the Acropolis really is – a vast fortress built on a hill that dominates the city of Athens and can be seen for miles around whenever you look up. It should be seen with a guide, because there are many, many things you may miss that a guide can direct your attention to and tell you more about. As you start the steep climb up, you realize there’s only one way up, with sheer cliffs on all other sides. Can you imagine the strategic military advantage of such a fortress on such a cliff, commanding views for miles around? Of course, in the event that it was conquered, people had built secret tunnels leading to the mountains or the sea to escape.

The Acropolis was earlier the inner city with people living in it, but later it was turned into a place of worship and the people were moved into the outer city. Acropolis literally means city of worship.

Climbing up, you come across various ruins – the temple dedicated to Asclepios (the ancient god of medicine), the theatre of Dionysos, the odeum of Herodes, the Areopagus and various ruins of civic buildings. Of these, the theatres are really note-worthy. The odeum of Herodes is used to this day for musical performances. The Areopagus is the Mount Sinai of Athens, from where St. Paul preached Christianity to the Greek people for the first time. St. Paul is a favorite in Athens for bringing Christianity to them, and supplanting the ancient gods with the new faith. Nearly 98% of the people in Athens are Greek Orthodox, and nearly 5 million of Greece’s entire population of 11 million resides in Athens.

As you climb higher and higher, the view grows more and more spectacular. On a clear day, you can see all the way to Piraeus (the Athenian port) and the Saronic Gulf. It’s wonderful to see the ancient Agora, the temple of Olympian Zeus, the hill of Philopappou, the hill of Lycibates, the Panathanaiko Olympic stadium and countless other monuments from the clear vantage point of the Acropolis.

Along the steps you notice a smooth path running alongside, which was for horses and chariots. Finally you reach the gate of the Acropolis, called the Propylea. Right next to the Propylea is the temple dedicated to Nike Athena. The whole area is under extensive restoration, which may take 25-30 years just to complete Phase I!!! Forget about seeing the entire restored Acropolis in your lifetime – it’s a hundred year plan!

Two interesting facts about the Parthenon. When the Parthenon was being constructed, the priests felt that the corner pillars look narrower than the others, due to an optical illusion. So the four corner columns are wider than the rest, but you will probably not be able to understand that unless you are told. Another thing, the monument was earlier built with a level floor, but it kept filling up with water every time it rained, which destroyed everything it contained. And that was a serious problem because the back room of the Parthenon, behind the giant gold and ivory statue of Athena (which is now missing), functioned as a treasury in which all the wealth of Athens was stored. So, the floor was given a slight slant, so that the water that flows in immediately flows out also.
Apart from the famous Parthenon, there survive 2 more temples within the Acropolis – the Erechthion (temple dedicated to Athena and Poseidon) and the temple of Nike Athena. The Erechthion is the only monument not covered by scaffolding at the present time, and has a beautiful extension with columns in the shape of women, called the Kykladides, named after the beautiful women of the Cyclades. Take a walk around the perimeter of the Acropolis for the views and the photograph opportunities – it’s a lovely experience.

On the way back, it is recommended to turn right and walk through the ancient Agora and the Flea market all the way to the Plaka area. The ancient Agora is another stunning area, containing not only the ancient marketplace as the name suggests, but also civic offices, an arsenal, baths, gymnasia and various other buildings, including the Stoa of Attalus that dominates the scene. On the way back from the arsenal, we went off the beaten path and ended up on a secluded bench overlooking the vibrant greenery of the agora. It was so quiet and peaceful that it was hard to believe we were in the very heart of a giant, pulsing city. Hehe, maybe a little too peaceful, because my husband was asleep within minutes with his head in my lap!

After the peace and quiet of the Agora, the rush and push of the flea market was unbelievable, suffocating and extremely irritating. Millions of people wanted to occupy the few square inches you yourself wanted to plant your foot into, and bumped into you all the time. After Oslo, it was really claustrophobic, and despairing, we ran into Monastiraki metro station with a sigh of relief.

Tomorrow we plan to see Hadrian’s Arch and the Temple of Olympian Zeus, the National Archaeological Museum and the National Gardens, and time and weather permitting, maybe climb one of the many hills to get a nice view of Athens.

Day after tomorrow is the Greek Independence Day, and we’ll be just in time to catch their parade before leaving for the airport in the afternoon. It’s worked out quite well.

DAY 5 – 24th March 2008

We started the day late, tired after yesterday’s many adventures and strenuous walk. The National Archaeological Museum opens at 1 on Mondays, and is open till 7:30 in the evening. We didn’t know earlier, but entry is free on all Sundays from October till March 31st and on the first Sunday of April – September. The entry fee is 7 Euros per person.

If you’ve seen the Louvre, you may not find this museum very large or well-stocked. There are no paintings, only sculptures and artefacts found in the various archaeological sites in Greece. Many of them are badly eroded and do not survive in a complete condition. However, there are some very interesting pieces, especially the bronze implements. Did you know that the first safety pin was invented in the 6th century B.C.? Or that women used hair pins and small mirrors with lids just like our compact cases even 2700 years ago? It’s fascinating to see how little has changed over the centuries. Some of the earrings I saw in the museum, I could walk out and buy in the flea market just now! It was fascinating!

Some of the sculptures found on various grave monuments are also fascinating, with the dead person depicted as talking to family members or doing some everyday normal activity as though nothing has happened, but with the family members registering expressions of grief at the loss of the loved one. Many of these are in really good condition, and you can see the detail in the work. A couple of bronze statues really took my fancy – the statue of Zeus/ Poseidon and the statue of a jockey on a horse. Zeus has hazel eyes made of paste and glass that are so real you really think a person is hiding inside the statue ready to leap out at you! The jockey really takes your breath away – a little traumatized boy barely holding onto a huge horse going full-pelt in a mad spring. The pain and worry on the boy’s face are really remarkably well-captured.

After a while though, you start longing for the sun, and we almost ran through the last rooms. From the museum we made our way to the Arch of Hadrian and the temple of Olympian Zeus. The arch separates the ancient Greek and Roman parts of Athens, with an inscription on the Greek side saying here resides the emperor and the people of Greece, and an inscription on the Roman side saying here reside the people of Hadrian. The temple of Zeus is one of the largest in the ancient world, but nothing survives apart from a few columns from one corner. Artistic renditions of the complete structure as it once was take your breath away, but today there’s not much to see unless you’re a student of architecture.

From the Arch we made our way to Zapion Exhibition and Congress Hall. Legend has it that Zapion once competed with the King of Greece for the piece of land on which the Queen wanted to build her garden. No points for guessing who won that contest. The area became the present-day National Gardens, in which the Queen entertained her friends and members of the royal family. This comes even more forcibly to mind when you see the Zapion Hall from inside the National Gardens.

After roaming around in the National Gardens for some time, we walked across Syntagma Square to Ermou Street, the main shopping area of Athens, where you will find all kinds of shops from designer labels to souvenir stalls. It’s a nice, lively place for a walk in the evening, and a refreshing change from impersonal shopping malls. Bargaining is a national pastime in Greece, so be sure to retort to any price quoted by something close to half. The shopkeeper usually settles for somewhere near that figure. For instance, I wanted to buy a skirt, and the shopkeeper asked for 20 euros. I told her I’d seen it for 12 elsewhere and she sold it to me for 12!!!

After all this walking we were so tired that we bought gyros and came back to the hotel, where we have now put up our feet and opened our books, laptops and other modes of entertainment. It has been a very nice trip, and the Greek Independence Day parade will be the perfect finish for it tomorrow.

DAY 6 – 25th March 2008

Overslept! Woke up around 10, rushed down to find hotel had finished serving breakfast, trudged back to the room, packed, got dressed and went out by 11. The parade was just starting when we reached the road, around 11:30. The atmosphere was charged – people were lining the streets holding flags, and had even climbed all the way up the stairs of the National Library, which was a really nice sight! We sat down at a roadside café and watched the parade go by while we ate breakfast. As the various units marched past, the people burst into applause. There was some formation flying also. It was nice, but I think the Indian Republic Day parade is much grander.

After the parade we still had some time before our flight so we wandered around revisiting some of our favorite places, and then it was time to go home! We’ve flown straight from 25 degrees C straight to -5, with snow on the ground and a cold, cold wind blowing! Will winter never end???????

Sunday 2 March, 2008

तारे ज़मीन पर

nice name, lovely movie, what amazing acting from such a lil kid!!! maybe not the first and definitely not the last movie on this subject, but made direct dil se! real feel-good factor - so important in a hindi movie. makes you fill up with emotion. and actually gave me a new thought, for the first time, about different children - they're born to perfectly normal people! the function in which tulip school kids act in a play - did you see the parents in the audience? that could be the audience in ANY school! tomorrow, that could be you or me with a kid like that! it's not anything we can control! there, but for the grace of God, go i! it filled me with a new emotion for those children, like they were my children, and i was following their every movement with pride and joy like the parents in that function! how traumatic it must be to be completely normal yourself, with every expectation of normalcy from your kid, and to have to deal with something that is so unexpected, so un-understandable! and yet it's your kid, and you love him and want him to succeed and be happy! we just can't tell what cards we'll be dealt... itni lambi zindagi hai... in the end, life takes all!

Friday 15 February, 2008

valentina speaks

who was saint valentine??? i don't know, and it doesn't really matter - thank god for him!!! such a lovely excuse for presents and pampering and romantic candlelit dinners! :) my cup spilleth...

Tuesday 5 February, 2008

cold, cold heart

it's a grey world - snow on the ground, clouds in the sky.

has the earth stopped revolving around the sun?

Saturday 2 February, 2008

सब जग सोए, हम जागें,
तारों से करें बातें...

Friday 1 February, 2008

aliens from another planet

some people you meet really seem to be from another planet. it's impossible to understand what motivates them to act as they do. especially when they act maliciously or rudely without any perceptible provocation. perhaps they have secret sorrows or simply bad upbringing that makes them incapable of predictable social responses. and then, not everyone is alike. but in our quiet regulated worlds where most people act with acceptable social manners, it's hard to know how to cope with those few who are... different.
i've recently had to cope with a person whom i completely fail to understand! she is rude without provocation, takes malicious delight in troubling me and denying me by devious routes whatever it is i want, and yet i find it hard to dislike her! you see, i have a theory - i believe you can judge people by the company they keep. i'm still testing it out, but it seems to be true. and the strange thing is - this hateful, rude, spiteful, masterful woman has really nice friends! people who are witty, funny, sweet and easy to talk to. so according to my theory, there has to be some side to this woman that is likeable, different from the side she consistently shows to me. recently i had the opportunity to watch her interact with one of her closest friends, and i was amazed by the change i saw in her! she was funny, flirty, amusing... charming!!!!!! it was most disturbing hehe. so is my theory wrong, or is there more to her than meets the eye, or is there more to the people around her than meets the eye? it's difficult to understand her tantrums, her paranoia, her persecution complexes - to see her at one moment almost desperately reaching out for friendship and at another violating your trust by repudiating your friendly overtures in the most rude and violent fashion! what IS it with her???????

Wednesday 30 January, 2008

i will...

"who knows how long i've loved you
d'you know i love you still
will i wait a lonely lifetime
if you want me to, i will...
love you forever and forever
love you with all my heart
love you whenever we're together
love you when we're apart
and when at last i find you
your song will fill the air
sing it loud so i can hear you
make it easy to be near you
for the things you do endear you/ to me
oh/ you know/ i will"


a friend of mine once said that when she fell in love with the perfect guy, she wished this song would play in the background when he proposed! and i thought that was the most romantic idea i'd ever heard! well, that was school and we were romantic back then... when he did propose to me, there was no music, no wine, no dancing, no wining or dining, even no ring! he did get down on one knee though (heehee, so sweet!) and sheepishly said those 4 words - will you marry me - and i giggled and said yes, and then i dropped him off at the railway station and came back home to an empty room... that's life! life doesn't always come with frills, but it has its way of filling you with soul-happiness! and then, even if this song doesn't actually fill the air, you can still hear it!!! and mean it!!!!!!

Tuesday 22 January, 2008

SATC

this blank box is one of the most intimidating things in the world!!!
have been maxing out on 'sex and the city'! it is a totally girly show for girls! i watch it for hours after my husband's fallen asleep or when he isn't at home.... hehe guilty secret no.1! it makes you think a lot, about married life, single life, relationships, casual sex, whatever...
personally speaking, i'm not a casual sex kinda person (major understatement from an indian - casual sex would mean a dimension or paradigm change for me!!!), and it's hard for me to understand sleeping with anyone without getting married first, let alone after just a couple of dates. it's got nothing to do with india though - the things kids do nowadays and the way they talk makes my hair go white. we've imported the western attitude alongwith the clothes, the junk food and the technology. oh, and of course, coca cola! kids nowadays dont go to school... they have oral sex in the hostel, which they secretly tape on their phones and send to all their friends. oh god, i never wanna have kids! anyway, the point is, sleeping with somebody you barely know or just met seems to me a little strange. being naked with somebody is the ultimate moment of truth. how can you invest so much in just a casual encounter? hmmm, but there's something to be said for the opposite point of view too - if you can't find love, atleast have sex in the meantime! :-)
another thing i noticed about the characters of the show - how to remain 'yourself' even while being in a relationship. i don't understand this at all! this assumes that you are one constant, static person, which you so are not! you're constantly reacting to changes in your environment, that make you think, analyze, evolve... change! then why not allow relationships to change who you are as well? after all, aren't you with that person because they're really special, because they stand out from the herd? being in a relationship is about both people meeting each other half-way, and how can you do that if you refuse to budge?

Monday 14 January, 2008

a clockwork orange

Recently my husband and I have been on a total movie binge! Living without cable television has enriched our lives in many ways - we read more books, we talk more often, we actually select which movies we want to watch instead of watching whatever's on tv... it's great!!! (my husband doesn't think so - missing the premier league is no joke!!!)
So anyway, we watched Clockwork Orange lately. Very disturbing movie with graphic portrayal of crime, sex, rape, lobotomy, criminal urges, beethoven - you name it! Everything you would expect from a Stanley Kubrick movie... There is something about this subject that makes you want to keep it subliminal. A movie that makes you identify and sympathise with a criminal character who is everything you are taught to condemn - well, it shocks you so much it takes days to recover! You are left wondering if there is somewhere inside you that sort of a person, who would be beyond control, beyond restraint! A part of you even wants to be that person! And you thought you were normal??? Well, after such a movie, I just had to watch Allo Allo to bring the world back into perspective! :-)
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Einstein spoke, and it was so...

One of the smartest men in the history of mankind spoke thus:

"How strange is the lot of us mortals! Each of us is here for a brief sojourn; for what purpose he knows not, though he sometimes thinks he senses it. But without deeper reflection one knows from daily life that one exists for other people -- first of all for those upon whose smiles and well-being our own happiness is wholly dependent, and then for the many, unknown to us, to whose destinies we are bound by the ties of sympathy. A hundred times every day I remind myself that my inner and outer life are based on the labors of other men, living and dead, and that I must exert myself in order to give in the same measure as I have received and am still receiving..." - Albert Einstein

Why are we on this earth? Why do we have no clue if we have a purpose or a destiny to fulfil? We can believe whatever we choose to believe, make of this life whatever we wish, and die not knowing any better than what we were born with - is there a larger purpose to our existence? I suppose in a way life is an end in itself - experience makes it worthwhile. Fall in love, have kids, walk the magical path of sensual exploration. And then die??? Ashes to ashes, dust to dust??? It's like training a resource for months and, just when he's fully trained and ready to work, firing him! I guess that's why we like to believe in our immortal souls, to convince ourselves that our actions have some larger, eternal significance.
Perhaps the idea is that one particular individual is not significant, but the work of mankind adds up over the centuries and results in progress. So many great scientific minds have expressed gratitude for the shoulders of the giants they stand upon every time they switch on a lightbulb! Yes, that is true - if it weren't for men far more gifted than I who have gone before me, my life would not be what it is today. I take it for granted, shrug my shoulders, and pass on my two bits to the next generation, but if you think for a bit, you are benefitting from other men's genius without having done anything to deserve it! Are we really just bricks in the wall, who slowly fall in place so that other bricks may lay on us? Then why do we have ego, self-consciousness, self-love? It seems like such a wasteful and redundant emotion in such a marvellously cost-effective world!
Perhaps it is as Einstein says - we can get glimpses of true purpose in a smile on a beloved face. We do our best according to our lights, and that's all there is to it. Perhaps it doesn't mean much to the universe, but the way we're constructed, if we've got love in our hearts and a song on our lips, it's pretty much all we asked for! :)