"who knows how long i've loved you
d'you know i love you still
will i wait a lonely lifetime
if you want me to, i will...
love you forever and forever
love you with all my heart
love you whenever we're together
love you when we're apart
and when at last i find you
your song will fill the air
sing it loud so i can hear you
make it easy to be near you
for the things you do endear you/ to me
oh/ you know/ i will"
a friend of mine once said that when she fell in love with the perfect guy, she wished this song would play in the background when he proposed! and i thought that was the most romantic idea i'd ever heard! well, that was school and we were romantic back then... when he did propose to me, there was no music, no wine, no dancing, no wining or dining, even no ring! he did get down on one knee though (heehee, so sweet!) and sheepishly said those 4 words - will you marry me - and i giggled and said yes, and then i dropped him off at the railway station and came back home to an empty room... that's life! life doesn't always come with frills, but it has its way of filling you with soul-happiness! and then, even if this song doesn't actually fill the air, you can still hear it!!! and mean it!!!!!!
Wednesday 30 January, 2008
Tuesday 22 January, 2008
SATC
this blank box is one of the most intimidating things in the world!!!
have been maxing out on 'sex and the city'! it is a totally girly show for girls! i watch it for hours after my husband's fallen asleep or when he isn't at home.... hehe guilty secret no.1! it makes you think a lot, about married life, single life, relationships, casual sex, whatever...
personally speaking, i'm not a casual sex kinda person (major understatement from an indian - casual sex would mean a dimension or paradigm change for me!!!), and it's hard for me to understand sleeping with anyone without getting married first, let alone after just a couple of dates. it's got nothing to do with india though - the things kids do nowadays and the way they talk makes my hair go white. we've imported the western attitude alongwith the clothes, the junk food and the technology. oh, and of course, coca cola! kids nowadays dont go to school... they have oral sex in the hostel, which they secretly tape on their phones and send to all their friends. oh god, i never wanna have kids! anyway, the point is, sleeping with somebody you barely know or just met seems to me a little strange. being naked with somebody is the ultimate moment of truth. how can you invest so much in just a casual encounter? hmmm, but there's something to be said for the opposite point of view too - if you can't find love, atleast have sex in the meantime! :-)
another thing i noticed about the characters of the show - how to remain 'yourself' even while being in a relationship. i don't understand this at all! this assumes that you are one constant, static person, which you so are not! you're constantly reacting to changes in your environment, that make you think, analyze, evolve... change! then why not allow relationships to change who you are as well? after all, aren't you with that person because they're really special, because they stand out from the herd? being in a relationship is about both people meeting each other half-way, and how can you do that if you refuse to budge?
have been maxing out on 'sex and the city'! it is a totally girly show for girls! i watch it for hours after my husband's fallen asleep or when he isn't at home.... hehe guilty secret no.1! it makes you think a lot, about married life, single life, relationships, casual sex, whatever...
personally speaking, i'm not a casual sex kinda person (major understatement from an indian - casual sex would mean a dimension or paradigm change for me!!!), and it's hard for me to understand sleeping with anyone without getting married first, let alone after just a couple of dates. it's got nothing to do with india though - the things kids do nowadays and the way they talk makes my hair go white. we've imported the western attitude alongwith the clothes, the junk food and the technology. oh, and of course, coca cola! kids nowadays dont go to school... they have oral sex in the hostel, which they secretly tape on their phones and send to all their friends. oh god, i never wanna have kids! anyway, the point is, sleeping with somebody you barely know or just met seems to me a little strange. being naked with somebody is the ultimate moment of truth. how can you invest so much in just a casual encounter? hmmm, but there's something to be said for the opposite point of view too - if you can't find love, atleast have sex in the meantime! :-)
another thing i noticed about the characters of the show - how to remain 'yourself' even while being in a relationship. i don't understand this at all! this assumes that you are one constant, static person, which you so are not! you're constantly reacting to changes in your environment, that make you think, analyze, evolve... change! then why not allow relationships to change who you are as well? after all, aren't you with that person because they're really special, because they stand out from the herd? being in a relationship is about both people meeting each other half-way, and how can you do that if you refuse to budge?
Monday 14 January, 2008
a clockwork orange
Recently my husband and I have been on a total movie binge! Living without cable television has enriched our lives in many ways - we read more books, we talk more often, we actually select which movies we want to watch instead of watching whatever's on tv... it's great!!! (my husband doesn't think so - missing the premier league is no joke!!!)
So anyway, we watched Clockwork Orange lately. Very disturbing movie with graphic portrayal of crime, sex, rape, lobotomy, criminal urges, beethoven - you name it! Everything you would expect from a Stanley Kubrick movie... There is something about this subject that makes you want to keep it subliminal. A movie that makes you identify and sympathise with a criminal character who is everything you are taught to condemn - well, it shocks you so much it takes days to recover! You are left wondering if there is somewhere inside you that sort of a person, who would be beyond control, beyond restraint! A part of you even wants to be that person! And you thought you were normal??? Well, after such a movie, I just had to watch Allo Allo to bring the world back into perspective! :-)
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So anyway, we watched Clockwork Orange lately. Very disturbing movie with graphic portrayal of crime, sex, rape, lobotomy, criminal urges, beethoven - you name it! Everything you would expect from a Stanley Kubrick movie... There is something about this subject that makes you want to keep it subliminal. A movie that makes you identify and sympathise with a criminal character who is everything you are taught to condemn - well, it shocks you so much it takes days to recover! You are left wondering if there is somewhere inside you that sort of a person, who would be beyond control, beyond restraint! A part of you even wants to be that person! And you thought you were normal??? Well, after such a movie, I just had to watch Allo Allo to bring the world back into perspective! :-)
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Einstein spoke, and it was so...
One of the smartest men in the history of mankind spoke thus:
"How strange is the lot of us mortals! Each of us is here for a brief sojourn; for what purpose he knows not, though he sometimes thinks he senses it. But without deeper reflection one knows from daily life that one exists for other people -- first of all for those upon whose smiles and well-being our own happiness is wholly dependent, and then for the many, unknown to us, to whose destinies we are bound by the ties of sympathy. A hundred times every day I remind myself that my inner and outer life are based on the labors of other men, living and dead, and that I must exert myself in order to give in the same measure as I have received and am still receiving..." - Albert Einstein
Why are we on this earth? Why do we have no clue if we have a purpose or a destiny to fulfil? We can believe whatever we choose to believe, make of this life whatever we wish, and die not knowing any better than what we were born with - is there a larger purpose to our existence? I suppose in a way life is an end in itself - experience makes it worthwhile. Fall in love, have kids, walk the magical path of sensual exploration. And then die??? Ashes to ashes, dust to dust??? It's like training a resource for months and, just when he's fully trained and ready to work, firing him! I guess that's why we like to believe in our immortal souls, to convince ourselves that our actions have some larger, eternal significance.
Perhaps the idea is that one particular individual is not significant, but the work of mankind adds up over the centuries and results in progress. So many great scientific minds have expressed gratitude for the shoulders of the giants they stand upon every time they switch on a lightbulb! Yes, that is true - if it weren't for men far more gifted than I who have gone before me, my life would not be what it is today. I take it for granted, shrug my shoulders, and pass on my two bits to the next generation, but if you think for a bit, you are benefitting from other men's genius without having done anything to deserve it! Are we really just bricks in the wall, who slowly fall in place so that other bricks may lay on us? Then why do we have ego, self-consciousness, self-love? It seems like such a wasteful and redundant emotion in such a marvellously cost-effective world!
Perhaps it is as Einstein says - we can get glimpses of true purpose in a smile on a beloved face. We do our best according to our lights, and that's all there is to it. Perhaps it doesn't mean much to the universe, but the way we're constructed, if we've got love in our hearts and a song on our lips, it's pretty much all we asked for! :)
"How strange is the lot of us mortals! Each of us is here for a brief sojourn; for what purpose he knows not, though he sometimes thinks he senses it. But without deeper reflection one knows from daily life that one exists for other people -- first of all for those upon whose smiles and well-being our own happiness is wholly dependent, and then for the many, unknown to us, to whose destinies we are bound by the ties of sympathy. A hundred times every day I remind myself that my inner and outer life are based on the labors of other men, living and dead, and that I must exert myself in order to give in the same measure as I have received and am still receiving..." - Albert Einstein
Why are we on this earth? Why do we have no clue if we have a purpose or a destiny to fulfil? We can believe whatever we choose to believe, make of this life whatever we wish, and die not knowing any better than what we were born with - is there a larger purpose to our existence? I suppose in a way life is an end in itself - experience makes it worthwhile. Fall in love, have kids, walk the magical path of sensual exploration. And then die??? Ashes to ashes, dust to dust??? It's like training a resource for months and, just when he's fully trained and ready to work, firing him! I guess that's why we like to believe in our immortal souls, to convince ourselves that our actions have some larger, eternal significance.
Perhaps the idea is that one particular individual is not significant, but the work of mankind adds up over the centuries and results in progress. So many great scientific minds have expressed gratitude for the shoulders of the giants they stand upon every time they switch on a lightbulb! Yes, that is true - if it weren't for men far more gifted than I who have gone before me, my life would not be what it is today. I take it for granted, shrug my shoulders, and pass on my two bits to the next generation, but if you think for a bit, you are benefitting from other men's genius without having done anything to deserve it! Are we really just bricks in the wall, who slowly fall in place so that other bricks may lay on us? Then why do we have ego, self-consciousness, self-love? It seems like such a wasteful and redundant emotion in such a marvellously cost-effective world!
Perhaps it is as Einstein says - we can get glimpses of true purpose in a smile on a beloved face. We do our best according to our lights, and that's all there is to it. Perhaps it doesn't mean much to the universe, but the way we're constructed, if we've got love in our hearts and a song on our lips, it's pretty much all we asked for! :)
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