H.E.L.P.

nothing can turn back time. i'm very aware that the choices i'm making right now will determine what i will have to live with ten or twenty years later, but i just don't see how i could decide things any differently. i love working. i just love my job, i love using my brain, i love earning money and being able to buy things without asking anybody for them, i love all that. but if there's one thing i love more than that, it's my husband. i know that i'm giving up developing to my full potential in order to follow another person around wherever they may go, but i also sincerely believe that i would die inside if i could not be with that person. it's really a no-brainer. i wish i could have everything, but hey, who does? i hope one day i don't become so cynical that i don't realize that i really wanted to do this just now, and to hell with the consequences! i wish i don't look back and regret the choices i made and yearn to do them over. i'm really scared of that.