pippa

sometimes some books can touch you so deeply, like they're written about yourself. the private lives of pippa lee, by rebecca miller. i am filled with emotion, touched to the heart. scared. this life that i am building for myself, sacrificing everything else to be a wife, hoping to be a mother, will i end up being superfluous in the lives of everyone i love and work for? am i really doing this for myself?

blame it on the neighbors

there's been a bomb blast in islamabad today - the marriott hotel lies in ruins, several fatalities. i feel terrible... and guilty. i have always been told that pakistan is behind the terrorism attacking my country, deliberately sabotaging our peace to gain control of our territories, and worse - harboring and even training terrorists and then sending them to our country to kill us. and i'm sure everyone was secretly or not-so-secretly blaming them for the series of blasts hitting india lately. now that there is a bomb blast in their country as well, i don't know what to think. i don't know whether i should call it a cover-up job to convince the west that they're not behind the indian terror attacks, or whether i should empathize since they're in the same situation as us. no matter what it is though, the pakistani person on the street is no better off than the indian person on the street. no matter who wins this war, we lose. our lives, our children, our peace. what is the solution???

under threat

this is a sad day. my country is under repeated attacks from idiots who believe they're achieving something by killing little children. it is hard not to be filled with rage and helplessness. it is hard not to rant on and on about the uselessness and pointlessness of it all. the ones who do it are not listening. will they ever realize that this is not the answer?

procrastination flowchart

stumbled upon this: http://www.mymilliondollaryear.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2007/11/flowchart1.jpg - it's the stages you go through when trying to avoid work! hehe sounds almost uncomfortably familiar! :)

eulogy to a brother in arms

in the words of phoebe buffay: "it's a sucky life! and just when you think it can't suck no more, it does!" fuckall cruel joke we are, mortal and fallible, dying before our time.
yugraj was his name, but he did not rule the world, not even his own world. a little boy inside the man. the eldest and the youngest of us all. my darling, darling brother, i miss you!

star power - may the force be with them

so many of our indian movie stars are now turning to blogging to be able to connect directly with their fans and the public. i suppose it's a free country and all, but really, i thought much more highly of them before i knew them so intimately! in an industry built on selling the impossible dream to people, it is disillusioning to see them as mere mortals. if this continues, will the next step be, oh horrors, realistic cinema?????????? :)

aerosmith guru

You ain't that good/ Is what you said down to the letter
But you like the way I hold a microphone
Sometimes I'm good but when I'm bad I'm even better
Don't give me no lip/ I've got enough of my own...
Falling in love is so hard on the kneeeeeees!!!

Genius! Pure genius! :)

The story of your life... in 30 words or less

There's this really interesting website that posts stories written by its readers. The catch? The entire story has to be written in one sentence. A very interesting idea. Some of the stories are really good, and most of them evoke a lot in just one sentence - a whole setting, situation and mood. Here's the link: http://www.onesentence.org/

I stumbled upon the Picasso in me

hehe I was stumbling again, and it led me to a site where you can make your own picasso-esque painting using basic design elements from his work. it's fun, even though the choices are quite limited! see what I made: http://www.mrpicassohead.com/canvas.html?id=87ebcc5&skin=original

Are we animals???

I was watching this animal rescue show on one of the nature channels on tv. It's so depressing to see in what condition house pets are sometimes kept. Why do people think they're the lords of creation? They take animals as pets when nobody is forcing them to, and then don't feed them or look after them, or worse, are cruel to them, and make them wish they'd never been born! What gives us the right to do that? Animals are made for love, the only beings in the world capable of unconditional silent devotion! They're like children that trust us and depend on us for everything! It is NOT OK to mistreat them! Thank God somebody's monitoring the situation and taking maltreated animals away from their "owners".
I loved my dog and I miss him every day. He was the most beautiful brindle boxer that was specially hiding in a hell-hole for us to rescue. He had three different kinds of worms when we got him, as well as near-starvation, asthma and slight starvation-related muscular under-development similar to rickets. Boxers don't do so well in a hot country like India. It took us nearly six months to get him completely healthy again, and he was faithfully ours for the rest of his shorter-than-usual life. Such a beautiful dog, and so naughty! He conquered our hearts and ruled our lives. He had the best blanket in the house but would only wait till Dad dozed off to jump up slyly onto his bed. If you made a strange noise that he'd never heard before, he'd cock his head around from side to side trying to figure out what the matter with you was. He was so patient that once when I didn't see him behind me and stepped back onto his toe, the poor thing went and hid but never retaliated in any way. Would you be able to do that? A darling, darling boy that left a space in our family, our lives, our hearts that we will never be able to fill again. If you think he was just an animal, you seriously need to get one yourself. Most likely you'll be talking to your pet within a month. :)
I want to get another dog, but we're here in this country only temporarily and I don't know what it would involve to take him back with us to a country with a very different climate. And if we're not able to take him/her, it would just break my heart. So I wait... But God, I miss having that interaction. It's on another level, a more basic, instinctive level, something we can't achieve with humans because they're too developed.